17 days. OK. Now, I have done this before. This is my up-teenth time quitting. I read somewhere (Oh yeah, the NY Times: http://www.nytimes.com/2008/12/29/us/29smoke.html) that it takes the average smoker at least 10 times to quit. In some way that makes me feel better. The last time I “quit” I stayed cigarette free for 8 months.
Then I got cocky. And I started again. And that was after going cold-turkey where I had a meltdown with a very unfortunate tow truck driver, who had to drive me home from the train station. Poor guy – his dispatcher called me an hour later to see if I was ok. I think I told the tow truck driver I had quit only 3 days before, cold turkey, and they took pity on me. You would think that would’ve jolted me never to repeat such an experience, but… well… I got cocky.
This time, hopefully my last time, I will wear the patch for as long as I need it. They say its 8 weeks – 4 weeks on step 1, 2 weeks on step 2 and 2 weeks on step 3, then you’re all done! I’m a bit apprehensive. I may stay on step 2 for a bit longer and maybe a 3 weeks on step 3. I don’t think that 2 weeks more than average on the patch will make that much of a difference. If anyone knows, let me know. But, right now I figure I’ll be on the patch 8-10 weeks.
This time I will have to really limit my alcohol intake for a while. But, last time I did that, and 8 months later I had a nice buzz and…well…there was this really pretty smelling clove cigarette. And that was that.
I need to be humble.
I need to be kind to myself.
I need to believe that I can never EVER smoke a cigarette. Ever. For ever, ever.
I guess I need to hate them…and, unfortunately, I liked to smoke. I need to be disgusted by them.
But for right now, I will be happy and celebrate my 17th day (again) no smoking.
Every week I now get myself a manicure, its nice, makes my fingers pretty and I enjoy that treat. I am saving $65 a week. I am also using these savings for 8 days in Florida.