Well, well, well. Here we are. Today I will be going to the second patch out of three. I’ve been on the “Step 1” for 4 weeks, and I’m moving onto “Step 2”. Good for me. I have really only spazzed out a couple of times throughout the month. Stress induced “wanting to smoke” feelings, but knowing that the smoke really wasn’t what I wanted. I needed a stress reliever, and it passed. The panic attacks that I have been writing about come in waves, and I have lived through them. I’m gaining a bit of weight, but that is because I equate those panic attacks now to “maybe you’re hungry, eat food.” When I do eat, the attacks pass. Hopefully I won’t be 300 lbs by the end of the year since I am now substituting food for smokes; but for now -these crucial first 3 months – I will be kind to myself, and just do it.
Although this should be my last month on the patch – two weeks on Step 2 and two weeks on Step 3 – I think I will extend this by one week per Step. I am doing well with the constant flow of nicotine in my body, and don’t really want to rock the boat. I hope I don’t get addicted to the patch….
Thank you to everyone who has sent support and comments! I appreciate you rooting for me.